Andrew tells Jesus that there is a boy who has five barley loaves and two fish. He tells Jesus that it will not be enough, but Jesus says that he must ask the people to sit down. We hear that the people sat - presumably because Andrew and the other disciples did as Jesus instructed them.
Yesterday, I suggested that Philip was
overwhelmed and anxious when Jesus asked him where they could find bread. He suddenly came face to face with his fragility and lack of resources to feed the hungry crowd.
Observe how Andrew, on the other hand, surveys the scene, spots the boy with the five barley loaves and two fish, shares his concerns with Jesus, and then follows Jesus' instructions. He instructs the people to sit down. Andrew acknowledges the boy and also shares his
doubts with Jesus. Jesus, however, is aware that he will take control.
Today, the universal Church commemorates the feast of St. Ignatius Loyola - the founder of the Society of Jesus (Jesuits). It is apt that we reflect on what Andrew does, as Ignatius undergoes a similar transformation in his life. He realises that he lacks enough and cannot fulfil his desires and aspirations (as much as he tries to) and opens himself to Jesus. He
discovers, like Andrew, that when he shares his concerns with Jesus, and even admits his uncertainty and fragility, grace intervenes and God takes control. Ignatius, like Andrew, learns that when he collaborates with the Lord, remarkable things can be achieved in and through him.
Do you express your concerns and doubts to the Lord? Think of a time when you have. Looking back on your life, can you see a moment when you were
confronted with what seemed impossible, and when you opened yourself to the Lord, he took charge and surprised you? When has the Lord used the little you thought you had to do something remarkable?
Reflections by Russell
Pollitt SJ
